Ranting and Ravings of an Unstable Mind

July 2nd, 2007 by insomniaticprozac

You go out, meet people, have to listen to their jabber that is just all bs … I mean total bs. People aren’t really who they make themselves out to be … it is a total load of crap …. like boring blabber … that is what I hear …. blah blah blah …. then it becomes white noise ….. Muahahahahahahaha

They always either wanna talk about themselves or they wanna teach you something …. yawnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn …. at the same time they don’t really care about peoples feelings … they’re like sitting their getting off on what they are talking about … chill out relax …

I go out to enjoy the music, drinks and ambiance …. company …. well that is dependent on who the company is.

Errr I dunno what I am rambling about and what the whole point of this whole entry is supposed to be about … hahahahahah …. lost my train of thought … told you I have an unstable mind! Till the next time …

Carol’s 60th

July 2nd, 2007 by insomniaticprozac

Whomever attended Carol’s 60th Birthday, please view photos at www.carolshum.com. Thanks to Jeff, the site is running!

For all those who attended the party, thank you very much for your presence, the family was greatly touched by the efforts put in and the wonderful charitible donations for the Cancer Societies.

For us younger people, looks like the baby boomers know how to party harder than us Gen X and Y’s! Hahahaha …. or maybe they don’t get out of their cages often enough!

Hugssss thanks all for helping with this celebration. :-)

Please do forward this link as we do not have everyone’s email address. Thanks again!

The Effects of Alcohol

June 17th, 2007 by insomniaticprozac

Saturday night we had a lovely dinner cooked by a good friend of mine; it was fine dining at home! A four course meal, of course if you count the drinks then it would be a 5 course meal.

Dinner started with a avocado crab appetizer, then went on to a mixed salad with french dressing, afterwhich we were served our french onion soup, and finally our main course steak and lamb. Of course we didn’t all have both steak and lamb, some of us had steak and some lamb. Ah I forgot about the starter drink which was a wonderful puree of peach and strawberry with a hint of vodka (a very strong hello i’m vodka i’m in here, but that was totally accidental).

Anyway after dinner we got to talking about the effects of alcohol and whether or not alcohol tends to show the real you to other people. It was a highly debated topic, some people believing yes it does tend to show a truer part of you and some people disagreeing with it.

Pulled from the handy wikipedia - "Intoxication frequently leads to a lowering of one’s inhibitions, and intoxicated people will sometimes do things they would not do while sober, often overlooking social, moral, and legal considerations. However, it appears that intoxicated people have much greater control over their behavior than is generally recognized."

"The psychological effects of alcohol intoxication include lack of inhibitions, increase in aggression and violence, uninhibited sexual behaviour/lack of interest in sex, mood swings, depression, impaired memory and sensory-motor co-ordination." http://www.health24.com/mind/Sexual_dysfunction/1284-1300,18171.asp

If you all have a chance, this is an intersting case study to read http://casaa.unm.edu/info/ALCOHOL%20AND%20ITS%20EFFECTS%20ON%20BEHAVIOR.pdf

Anyway … what do you think?

Presents!

June 17th, 2007 by insomniaticprozac

You ever sit there and get stuck on what type of present to buy and you just anyhow buy a present that you think you’ll get away with just cause it’s popular or branded?

Well frankly speaking many years ago, I used to be a materialistic snob, and felt that if I didn’t get a branded present or something really popular or something I’d be all upset…. And of course it worked in the way when I bought people presents I just thought branded was good enough ….

As I got older, I realized that it actually comes from somewhere in your heart … you got to know the person to actually pick out a great gift, it’s not about price, it’s not about brand, and it surely isn’t about whether everyone has it so it’s good to get. One of the most memorable gifts I have ever received over the years was a cartoon character piggy bank. I felt the person put much thought into the purchase of that gift. It shared my humorous perverse nature at the same time because I always hate carrying coins and it is pretty difficult for me to save money that it was the perfect well thought out gift at that time.

It takes me a heck of a long time to think up what gifts I am going to get someone so what happens is when I do go shopping and I find something and it’s not even the person’s birthday, I just buy it! But there’s always a great deal of thought that goes through with what I buy, whether the person will actually like it or use it …. if it’s clothes or jewellry, will it suit the persons taste. If it’s gadgets will the person like it. Tickets, is it the type of thing the person enjoys. Seriously though, I think it’s silly to dump lots of $s down to buy stuff for people if you don’t even know what they really like. Trust me, I’ve been there … where I just go ahead and buy stuff without a thought for the person and realize it goes to waste and yes the price tag for some of them were ridiculous.

So that being said think carefully about the person you are buying a present for… try to figure out what they like or just kind of ask vague questions and observe the persons reaction before you buy. Don’t buy for the convenience or just because usually people say that oh you must buy this because this is the type of gift people should buy in this type of situation. Hahaha trust me on this, one of my friends listened to everyone else, bought something quite branded and pretty ridcuolously expensive for their then partner, the person ended up cheating on this friend, and eventually broke up after 5 months…. Muahahahahahahaha ….. all my friend said was, that was the first time i ever bought something so impracticle like that … and …. for what? Er trust me, they weren’t in love … it was just bad advice from people that believe that this certain gift would show how must my friend cared for the other party because that’s the type of gift that can awe a person and make a person fall in love with you bla bla bla bla bla bla bla ……………

I had a good laugh … cause at the end of the day, I went and said told you NOT to buy, but you got the spare cash and oh well What’s done is done …. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHA

psst but hey, that being said …. diamonds are still my best friends!!!! hint hint hint ………………. lol

i’m not avoiding the world

June 6th, 2007 by insomniaticprozac

Hi Folks, I’m really not avoiding you, but I’ve been sick on and off…. First it’s Strep, then it’s Acid Reflux from the stupid antibiotics. Hurray for me, I lost 3kg whilst in the process of being sick. Frankly speaking, I haven’t been partying or eating much these days because of the horrendous horrible pain I go through each time I swallow. Thanks goodness I finally got some medication to settle the burning effect.

Anyway, was wondering, do you believe karma transfers over throughout your different lives? If you do believe that we even have numerous lives…

You see, it’s strange, either a test of faith or what I am not sure, but bad things do really happen to good people and vice versa … hahaha … or maybe in my life I just know too many people that have done bad things … but I don’t see it as bad … hmmm …. or perhaps I did too many bad things in my younger days??? Hmmm but really I thought I repaid all of that already.

Yes yes I’m in one of my moods again … where I think of the past, present and the bleak future….

Life is like a pool ball, there are no points … thus pointless … so we sit around rambling, thinking we are doing important things … doing good deeds or bad … but at the end … where does it get us?

So why not like some, live by the day … live today, worry tomorrow, step all over anyone that gets in your way and just plainly be selfish.

Sounds like a plan!!!!

Back in SG

May 15th, 2007 by insomniaticprozac

Had a rocking time in the US with my Mom’s Surprise Bday party and all! We all had a good time and she was super touched… Anyway after that we had a relaxing family fun time at Cancun, Mexico where I got burned…. Had fun in the sun without the humidity. Will post pictures later. The place is beautiful and the best part is that everything is all inclusive at the hotels.  There’s really no need to worry about food and drinks.

Returned and immediately went to ICB to celebrate my friends birthday … had some drinks but not as much as I usually do… out of practice I think! We all enjoyed taking pictures with my new pink cowboy hat … Am happy I am back … seeing all my friends again … not that I don’t miss those back in the US but, think I am pretty settled here.  Hmm but I really don’t miss the humidity. 

Ok I’m looking forward to movie marathon and just chilling at home.

Happy Hour or Late Night Special

April 30th, 2007 by insomniaticprozac

It’s the eve of a holiday and the funniest thing is we were all supposed to go out for happy hour … low and behold happy hour became 730, then 750 became 830 probably closer to 9. Only the queen of nuah can do this!!!

I think I’ll have a bit of dinner with my housemates first! Since Queen Nuah is only stepping out of her house right at this moment. But all in all she’s kind and fun so she’s forgiven … guess everyone just lets her get away with it cause it’s just so her!!!

I don’t think she’s ever been early …. hmmmm ….

Anyway we’re headed over to good old ICB, my last night of partying before my flight. Really got to finish packing tomorrow and got to go to the office and clear up some stuff… Yah I know it’s a public holiday but you got to do what you got to do … hahaha cause i never went to work today anyway … so i’ll go in tomorrow when no one is around. I like it better that way.

People do Read

April 28th, 2007 by insomniaticprozac

Hahahaha I can’t believe this … apparently people do read this blog … and some have even been looking forward to what I write … those nosy eyes.

This weekend I had a great time reliving childhood memeories with my childhood friend!!! We had a delightful time, at least that’s what I think … not really sure if he really had a good time! Anyway, I was told by his friend that I apparently some how made him drunk!!! I think he was just tired … not really drunk.

We had dinner, went to the pub where another good friend works, and then headed to another pub after my friend knocked off. I’m actually glad it was a pretty relaxing night, which means it was an early night, not one of those to 5am type nights.

It had been years since we caught up, but I guess it was long overdue, and the strangest part is at first I was antsy about the whole thing, which I guess kind of tired me out… It was a feeling of both excitement for seeing my childhood friend and at the same time excitement of not knowing what to expect. Afterall the last we spoke was at my Dad’s birthday party and it was probably the Hi - Bye type of thing.

Well, we really kicked it off well, and we did catch up on quite a bit with regards to what in the world happened all these years; of course we reminesced about the past alot. Laughing at the silly little things we did when we were kids, talking about the different paths we took, and surely we had to slaughter a song!!! Maybe we would have done better if we chose a canto pop song or something! hahahaha

Psst… I got stage fright … can’t stand all the staring eyes … it’s not psychological, happens everytime I pick up the mic … then I become over critical about whether I am singing correctly and if I am hitting the right notes, do I have the correct pitch, am I singing flat, does this line go up or down, are they staring at me funny cause I’m singing this completely off… whilst worrying about all that … i tend to just completely slaughter the song… thank goodness you were there with me to slaughter the song! (hugs hugs)

Heading home soon, should be fun … I’m excited about the trip to Cancun, I think everyone at home is! As a family we’ve not taken a family trip for ages … I mean ages … I think the last time we took a trip was on a cruise trip where I apparently contracted mono, which my parents immediately asked me who I kissed …. hahahaha Mono the kissing disease! Anyway the cruise ship was a misery … cause I basically was locked up in the cabin for 2 days, my brother got so sick of my groaning that he went and slept on the balcony. Cancun here we come! Can you believe it, we’ve never been!!!

Maybe end of May I’ll be joining my childhood friend in Saigon, if the offer is still available to me. Been wanting to go, but don’t dare to go alone, as the nagging from my parents will never end … I think he gets the same from his parents too!!! hahahahahaha It’s dangerous, you sure you want to go alone … bla bla bla

Actually I think he should stay in Asia, maybe even Singapore for a couple years, at least he’ll get to travel more around these parts. But seriously, don’t tell your parents I suggested this to you, if not they’ll murder me as you are finally going to be back home!

I’m off to yumcha soon … so I guess I’ll leave it to another time I decide to let your peering eyes look into my life.

Childs play, acting our lives away

Growing up, acting everyday and in every way

The world is our stage, perform at your best, live not to regret and always get the leading role! No ka lei fa junk…

smthg stupid i wrote

October 22nd, 2006 by insomniaticprozac

Sitting there peacefully
Childlike
Not a malicious thought running through
Oh the innocence
Ruined by a tint of brew
Now running through the veins
Oh so cruel
Thoughts disperse
Confused
In and out of sobriety
Your stuck in a dream
Or is it a nightmare
You’ll never find out…

communication

October 6th, 2006 by insomniaticprozac

In general, I am a very non-confrontational person, not non-confrontational per say but … mmm … how should I say it … I am bitchy therefore I am passive agressive.

Basically the basis of all relationships is communication.  If there is no communication there will be no understanding … without understanding no compromise will exsist between people.

Ah there are many forms of communication if you open your senses and observe from all angels you’ll see what I mean.

That being said, I just wanted to tell the world, I am actually a bad communicator, most of us are I think.  Or perhaps some of us prefer not to listen or hear or feel … ahahhahahahah I dunno …